happiness is only real when shared.

I drove up the hill to the barn. I hadn't been since the schooling show. It always used to be a place I could go and ride and forget about everything. Today was one of those days when I needed that time, if only a minute just to forget. I walked up to his stall and opened the door and held out my hand. The nostrils flared as he breathed me in. Then he rested his nose in my hand and I straightened the tousled mane. He rubbed his head against me.
"Remember me buddy? Haven't been up here in a while huh..." I give him a carrot, one last pat and shut the door. I have so many memories here I am overwhelmed and flooded with them. Getting up early saturday morning, packing my lunch, shorts, riding pants and boots and running out the door, cleaning stalls, grooming, training, cleaning tack, giving baths, feeding, helping kids mount up, and doing it all over again. Then it was my turn and I groomed him carefully, put my foot in that stirrup and left everything behind on the ground. I'd sit down in the saddle and feel him moving underneath me. I'd gather up my reins and go in the ring and feel the wind in my face, the sun on my arms and there was nothing in the world I wanted more than that - to smell the earth, horse and sky and just be there in that moment.
Yeah I'm going through riding withdrawl. ;) I stopped by to schedule a riding lesson but Jackie won't let me ride until I have my MRI and get that junk figured out. So I guess unfortunately I have to wait a couple more weeks before I can get back in the saddle.
It feels rather silly to be getting an MRI but my Dr. seemed to be concerned. There are some days where I don't have any pain at all but when it happens - boy it sure happens. It feels like someone is pinching a nerve or something in my brain. There are so many different things that cause stuff like that so I hope it gets resolved and we can narrow it down.

I'm planning on having a recital for my students on the 23d of August and I'm really excited about it and very proud of my students.

Oh in other exciting news, my really good friend Annie is coming up in a couple weeks and we're pretty much going to have a blast. I'm so excited about it.

I haven't had the best few weeks and I'm determined to put a stop to it. I feel slightly uncoordinated - as funny as that sounds - and lethargic. I just have to focus and keep working hard with my workout routine. I was just so draggy today and so wretched feeling. Anyways, I'm glad tomorrow is Sunday. I like Sundays.



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